i cannot believe it. the eve of my “proper” last day at st aloysius, it is so surreal.
i feel very content with my school career, i think content is the best word to use because it suggests that i am happy, i am satisfied and indeed i am, but there is ( in my opinion) a slight negative connotation of it, and this touches on the unavoidable rough patches that i have had: name calling, bitching, depression- the usual things that everyone experiences in their time at school.
i came to st aloysius after years of unhappiness at fernhill- i was a big girl and so was bullied- mum and dad thought it best to move me … i couldn’t and still cannot have agreed with them more,
i am sad to be leaving a place that -to me-was so welcoming, a place where i felt so safe, so comfortable- that feeling is, i am sure, a rarity and i cannot imagine what it will be like to not see the same faces, sit in the same , somewhat, bleak classrooms, have the “bant” with the teachers, all of whom i became so close too
i think most of all i will miss the conformity of it all- the knowing.
i will miss my friends, all of my wonderful, fantastic, intelligent, forgiving friends whom i love all so much, i feel blessed to be have been involved with such great people ( cannot believe how cheesy this all sounds, but FOOK IT , its a blog for a reason)
but with this all taken into consideration i am excited to close that chapter of my life and move on, i can’t deny it though, i cannot wait to see the back of some people, who to be frank, have caused me nothing but greif, i look forward to meeting new people and being in a new and alien environment…HOWEVER, i also love that i will still always have people at the college who i will remain close to because some bonds that have been made have indeed, been made for LYF.
i feel ready for change.
